Adrian

I want my tears back The treetops, the chimneys, the snowbed stories, winter grey Wildflowers, those meadows of heaven, wind in the wheat A railroad across waters, the scent of grandfatherly love Blue bayous, Decembers, moon through a dragonfly`s wings Where is the wonder where`s the awe Where`s dear Alice knocking on the door Where`s the trapdoor that takes me there Where the real is shattered by a Mad March Hare Where is the wonder where`s the awe Where are the sleepless nights I used to live for Before the years take me I wish to see The lost in me I want my tears back I want my tears back now A ballet on a grove, still growing young all alone A rag doll, a best friend, the voice of Mary Costa

Come and share this painting with me Unveiling of me, the magician that never failed This deep sigh coiled around my chest Intoxicated by a major chord I wonder Do I love you or the thought of you? Slow, love, slow Only the weak are not lonely Southern blue, morning dew Let-down-your-guards, I-love-you`s Ice-cream castles, lips-to-ear rhymes A slumber deeper than time Slow, love, slow Only the weak are not lonely

It`s a long road down the river deep `n wild Every twist and turn a wonder-dale It`s a scary ride we`d give anything to take Let yourself bleed Leave a footprint on every island you see Hey you, child of rape, the riverbed awaits Snow white, pitch-black, your life such strife Heavenward, deep down, I`ll show you such sights Believe it, we live as we dream / scream „He will go down he will drown drown, deeper down The river wild will take your only child He will go down he will drown drown deeper down The mills grind slow in a riverbed ghost town He will go down he will drown drown, deeper down If you want me, then do come across” What is it you dream of, child of mine? The magic ride, the mermaid cove? Never met a kinder heart than yours Let it bleed Leave a footprint on every island you see „I am the painted faces, the toxic kiss Sowing of doubt, troll beneath the bridge Come across Death by a thousand cuts Believe it, we live as we dream / scream” (Repeat ch.) „I am the desert-scape, the sand inside your hourglass I am the fear and abuse, the leper children Every eye sewn shut” „We will go down we will drown drown, deeper down The river wild will be our last ride We will go down we will drown drown, deeper down The mills grind slow in a riverbed ghost town” Beautifully shy as you are Never lose your heart And do come across

`Twas the night before When all through the world No words, no dreams, then one day A writer by a fire Imagined all Gaia Took a journey into a child-man`s heart A painter on the shore Imagined all the world Within a snowflake on his palm Unframed by poetry A canvas of awe Planet Earth falling back into the stars I am the voice of Never-Never-Land The innocence, the dreams of every man I am the empty crib of Peter Pan A silent kite against the blue, blue sky Every chimney, every moonlit sight I am the story that will read you real Every memory that you hold dear I am the journey I am the destination I am the home The tale that reads you A way to taste the night The elusive high Follow the madness Alice, you know once did Imaginarium A dream emporium Caress the tales And they will dream you real A storyteller`s game Lips that intoxicate The core of all life is a limitless chest of tales I am the voice of Never-Never-Land The innocence, the dreams of every man I am the empty crib of Peter Pan A silent kite against the blue, blue sky Every chimney, every moonlit sight I am the story that will read you real Every memory that you hold dear I am the voice of Never-Never-Land The innocence, the dreams of every man Searching heavens for another Earth Never-Land, innocence, dream of every man Never-Land, innocence, every man, Peter Pan

Lapsistain rakkain tää näyttämö on Mis kuutamo kujillaan kulkee Taipunut havu, kesä hoivassa sen Valkomeren niin aavan Joka aavekuun siivin Saapuu mut kotiin noutamaan Päällä talvisen maan hetki kuin ikuisuus Mi pienen kissan jaloin luokseni hiipii Tääl tarinain lähteellä asua saan mis Viulu valtavan kaihon Ikisäveltään maalaa Laulullaan herättää maan

Sweet little words made for silence Not talk Young heart for love Not heartache Dark hair for catching the wind Not to veil the sight of a cold world Kiss while your lips are still red While he`s still silent Rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled Hold another hand while the hand`s still without a tool Drown into eyes while they`re still blind Love while the night still hides the withering dawn First day of love never comes back A passionate hour`s never a wasted one The violin, the poet`s hand, Every thawing heart plays your theme with care Kiss while your lips are still red While he`s still silent Rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled Hold another hand while the hand`s still without a tool Drown into eyes while they`re still blind Love while the night still hides the withering dawn

Nukkuu korpi, ja nyt, aatoksissain minä matkaa teen Yli metsien, uinuvan veen Kuutar taivaan yön valaisee Maalaa maiseman, pohjoisen siimeksen Unta onko tää, Vai kuolema jossa palata sinne saan missä hiillos jo luovuttaa lumen alla Kun astun maailmaan, erämaan aikaan Ensilumi satoi kahdesti Maalasi sieluni taulun Tää jylhä kauneus ja ääretön yksinäisyys Lapsuuteni metsän, taivaan Kaikuu se haikeus halki tän matkan Aamun tullen yö tarinansa kertoo Jylhä on kauneus ja ääretön yksinäisyyteni Sitä henkeensä halajaa Kehtoni hauta, hautani paikka Erämaan viimeinen on Minne katosivat muut Suon noidat, neidontornit Ja varjoissa havisevat puut Kielon istutin ikihankeen Ja hiljaisuuden tultua luotin tulevaan Ensilumi satoi kahdesti Maalasi sieluni taulun Tää jylhä kauneus ja ääretön yksinäisyys Lapsuuteni metsän, taivaan Kaikuu se haikeus halki tän matkan Aamun tullen yö tarinansa kertoo Jylhä on kauneus ja ääretön yksinäisyyteni Sitä henkeensä halajaa Kehtoni hauta, hautani paikka Erämaan viimeinen on

Who’s there knocking at my window? The Owl and the Dead Boy This night whispers my name All the dying children Virgin snow beneath my feet Painting the world in white I tread the way and lose myself into a tale Come hell or high water My search will go on Clayborn Voyage without an end A nightingale in a golden cage That’s me locked inside reality’s maze Come someone make my heavy heart light Come undone bring me back to life It all starts with a lullaby Journey homeward bound A sound of a dolphin calling Tearing off the mask of man The Tower my sole guide This is who I am Escapist, paradise seeker Farewell now time to fly Out of sight, out of time, away from all lies A nightingale in a golden cage That’s me locked inside reality’s maze Come someone make my heavy heart light Come undone bring me back to life It all starts with a lullaby

I close my eyes The lantern dies The scent of awakening Wildhoney and dew Childhood games Woods and lakes Streams of silver Toys of olden days Meadows of heaven The flowers of wonder And the hidden treasures In the meadow of life My acre of heaven A 5-year-old winterheart In a place called home Sailing the waves of past Meadows of heaven Rocking chair without a dreamer A wooden swing without laughter Sandbox without toy soldiers Yuletide without the Flight Dreambound for life Flowers wither, treasures stay hidden Until I see the 1st star of fall I fall asleep And see it all: Mother’s care And color of the kites Meadows of heaven

The wolves, my love, will come Taking us home where dust once was a man Is there Life before a Death? Do we long too much and never let in? Howl 7 days to the wolves Where will we be when they come 7 days to the poison And a place in heaven Time drawing near as they come to take us This is my church of choice Love’s strength standeth in love’s sacrifice For the rest, I have to say to you I will dream like the God And suffer like all the dead children Howl 7 days to the wolves Where will we be when they come 7 days to the poison And a place in heaven Time drawing near as they come to take us This is Where heroes And cowards Part ways Light the fire, feast Chase the ghost, give in Take the road less traveled by Leave the city of fools Turn every poet loose

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An old man by a seashore At the end of day Gazes the horizon With seawinds in his face Tempest-tossed island Seasons all the same Anchorage unpainted And a ship without a name Sea without a shore for the banished one unheard He lightens the beacon, light at the end of world Showing the way lighting hope in their hearts The ones on their travels homeward from afar This is for long-forgotten Light at the end of the world Horizon crying The tears he left behind long ago The albatross is flying Making him daydream The time before he became One of the world’s unseen Princess in the tower Children in the fields Life gave him it all: An island of the universe Now his love’s a memory A ghost in the fog He sets the sails one last time Saying farewell to the world Anchor to the water Seabed far below Grass still in his feet And a smile beneath his brow This is for long-forgotten Light at the end of the world Horizon crying The tears he left behind so long ago

Heaven today is but a way To a place I once called home Heart of a child, one final sigh As another love goes cold Once my heart beat to the rhythm of the falling snow Blackened below, the river now flows A stream of molten virgin snow For the heart I’ll never have For the child forever gone The music flows, because it longs For the heart I once had Living today without a way To understand the weight of the world Faded and torn, old and forlorn My weak and hoping heart For the child, for the light For the heart I once had I’ll believe and foresee Everything I could ever be For the heart I’ll never have For the child forever gone The music flows, because it longs For the heart I once had Time will not heal a Dead Boy’s scars Time will kill For the heart I’ll never have For the child forever gone The music flows, because it longs For the heart I once had

We seduce the dark with pain and rapture Like two ships that pass in the night You and I, a whore and a bashful sailor Welcome to a sunrise of a dirty mind All you love is a lie You one-night butterfly Hurt me, be the one Whoever brings the night The Dark, created to hide the innocent white, the lust of night Eyes so bright, seductive lies Crimson masquerade where I merely played my part Poison dart of desire All you love is a lie You one-night butterfly Hurt me, be the one Whoever brings the night Choose a bride Tonight a fantasy for a zombie Hurt me, I love to suffer Your harem’s a dream for free Enter Suck from us and live forever Rotten beauty Will haunt you for a lifetime Come with me underwater And drown to despise me no more Unholy, unworthy My night is a dream for free All you love is a lie You one-night butterfly Hurt me, be the one Whoever brings the night

A ballad of dark queen echoes through night As he flees the curse of gods, the pharaoh’s wrath 1001 nights unseen The philosopher and the queen Ancient mariner in a sea of sand The burning beauty his tomb to die for 1001 nights unseen The philosopher and the queen Horizon’s swarming with death Run! Heaven has a darkened face Dunes are soaring, as on a chase Caravan of the cursed Chasing him across the waves May he now rest under aegis of mirage As the sands slowly turn to Elysian fields 1001 nights unseen The philosopher and the queen

6:30 winter morn Snow keeps falling, silent dawn A rose by any other name Eva leaves her Swanbrook home A kindest heart which always made Me ashamed of my own She walks alone but not without her name Eva flies away Dreams the world far away In this cruel children’s game There’s no friend to call her name Eva sails away Dreams the world far away The Good in her will be my sunflower field Mocked by man to depths of shame Little girl with life ahead For a memory of one kind word She would stay among the beasts Time for one more daring dream Before her escape, edenbeam We kill with her own loving heart Eva flies away Dreams the world far away In this cruel children’s game There’s no friend to call her name Eva sails away Dreams the world far away The Good in her will be my sunflower field

Who the hell are you to tell me What to do, why to do, why bother Leech in a mask of virtue Such waste, to ever think of you again Hey Judas, your Christess was our love Hit and run, your will be done Never sorry, never wrong More more more more more Master passion greed „Hello. How are you? Let me explain one thing. All for her and more for me Why is it so hard to see? I see no sense in doing this Not enough for me I fuck up everything but let me explain.” Some day you shall flee, Panting and weak Master passion greed All within me gone but pain and hope Hoping that the pain would fade away Greed, your master passion I Feed the mouth that bites me Mammon, opiate of the masses The reek of your lies draws flies Seek her Seduce her Tame her Blame her Have her Kill her Feast on it all With awakening the tears will begin To my everlasting shame silence took me

Running for her life The dark rain from her eyes still falls Breathtaking butterfly Chose a dark day to live Save one breath for me A Loner longing for The cadence of her last breath Why do I miss someone I never met, with bated breath I lay Seawinds brought her to me A butterfly, mere one-day miracle of life And all the poetry in the world Finally makes sense to me Save one death for me A Loner longing for The cadence of her last breath Put to rest all that’s not life Drink for beauty and fill my blank page Sometimes a dream turns into a dream A Loner longing for The cadence of her last breath

Baptised with a perfect name The doubting one by heart Alone without himself War between him and the day Need someone to blame In the end, little he can do alone You believe but what you see You receive but what you give Caress the one, the Never-Fading Rain in your heart – the tears of snow-white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak Apart from the wandering pack In this brief flight of time we reach For the ones, whoever dare You believe but what you see You receive but what you give Caress the one, the Never-Fading Rain in your heart – the tears of snow-white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak Reaching, searching for something untouched Hearing voices of the Never-Fading calling Caress the one, the Never-Fading Rain in your heart – the tears of snow-white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak

Finally the hills are without eyes They are tired of painting a dead man’s face red With their own blood They used to love having so much to lose Blink your eyes just once and see everything in ruins Did you ever hear what I told you Did you ever read what I wrote you Did you ever listen to what we played Did you ever let in what the world said Did we get this far just to feel your hate Did we play to become only pawns in the game How blind can you be, don’t you see You chose the long road but we’ll be waiting Bye bye beautiful Jacob’s ghost for the girl in white Blindfold for the blind Dead siblings walking the dying earth Noose around a choking heart Eternity torn apart Slow toll now the funeral bells „I need to die to feel alive” Did you ever hear what I told you Did you ever read what I wrote you Did you ever listen to what we played Did you ever let in what the world said Did we get this far just to feel your hate Did we play to become only pawns in the game How blind can you be, don’t you see You chose the long road but we’ll be waiting Bye bye beautiful It’s not the tree that forsakes the flower But the flower that forsakes the tree Someday I’ll learn to love these scars Still fresh from the red-hot blade of your words …How blind can you be, don’t you see… …that the gambler lost all he does not have… Did you ever hear what I told you Did you ever read what I wrote you Did you ever listen to what we played Did you ever let in what the world said Did we get this far just to feel your hate Did we play to become only pawns in the game How blind can you be, don’t you see You chose the long road but we’ll be waiting Bye bye beautiful

I. White Lands Of Empathica The end. The songwriter’s dead. The blade fell upon him Taking him to the white lands Of Empathica Of Innocence Empathica Innocence II. Home The dreamer and the wine Poet without a rhyme A widowed writer torn apart by chains of hell One last perfect verse Is still the same old song Oh Christ how I hate what I have become Take me home Getaway, runaway, fly away Lead me astray to dreamer’s hideaway I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world Forgive me I have but two faces One for the world One for God Save me I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world My home was there ‚n then Those meadows of heaven Adventure-filled days One with every smiling face Please, no more words Thoughts from a severed head No more praise Tell me once my heart goes right Take me home Getaway, runaway, fly away Lead me astray to dreamer’s hideaway I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world Forgive me I have but two faces One for the world One for God Save me I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world III. The Pacific Sparkle my scenery With turquoise waterfall With beauty underneath The Ever Free Tuck me in beneath the blue Beneath the pain, beneath the rain Goodnight kiss for a child in time Swaying blade my lullaby On the shore we sat and hoped Under the same pale moon Whose guiding light chose you Chose you all „I’m afraid. I’m so afraid. Being raped again, and again, and again I know I will die alone. But loved.” You live long enough to hear the sound of guns, long enough to find yourself screaming every night, long enough to see your friends betray you. For years I’ve been strapped unto this altar. Now I only have 3 minutes and counting. I just wish the tide would catch me first and give me a death I always longed for. IV. Dark Passion Play 2nd robber to the right of Christ Cut in half – infanticide The world will rejoice today As the crows feast on the rotting poet Everyone must bury their own No pack to bury the heart of stone Now he’s home in hell, serves him well Slain by the bell, tolling for his farewell The morning dawned, upon his altar Remains of the dark passion play Performed by his friends without shame Spitting on his grave as they came Getaway, runaway, fly away Lead me astray to dreamer’s hideaway I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world Forgive me I have but two faces One for the world One for God Save me I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world „Today, in the year of our Lord 2005, Tuomas was called from the cares of the world. He stopped crying at the end of each beautiful day. The music he wrote had too long been without silence.” He was found naked and dead, With a smile in his face, a pen and 1000 pages of erased text. Save me V. Mother & Father Be still, my son You’re home Oh when did you become so cold? The blade will keep on descending All you need is to feel my love Search for beauty, find your shore Try to save them all, bleed no more You have such oceans within In the end I will always love you The beginning.

Still Spinning round in my head How I regret everything that I said Why did I tell you to go Saving my pride but losing my soul I’m here all alone Still wait by the phone The hours go by What else could I do but to cry I call and I call Just to make things right Have I lost the fight Where were you last night I beg and I cry I keep asking why Where were you last night Where were you last night Lost In the dark and my fears If only you saw the tracks of my tears I think I’m losing my mind Where did you go and what did you find I’m here all alone Still wait by the phone The hours go by What else could I do but to cry I call and I call Just to make things right Have I lost the fight Where were you last night I beg and I cry I keep asking why Where were you last night Where were you last night I call and I call Just to make things right Have I lost the fight Where were you last night I beg and I cry I keep asking why Where were you last night Where were you last night [synth solo] I’m here all alone Still wait by the phone The hours go by What else could I do but to cry I call and I call Just to make things right Have I lost the fight Where were you last night I beg and I cry I call and I call Just to make things right Have I lost the fight Where were you last night I beg and I cry I keep asking why Where were you last night Where were you last night Where were you last night Where were you last night

A single grain can tip the scale Amidst the burden the scale will prevail Showing what`s worth being here Storyteller by a hearth of stone A white little creature purring me My childhood kingdom gone in time The islands filling my mind with blue The one in speacial, heaven’s court All the joy unforgiven by this task An errant soul, homeless and foul All gone but the will to Live to tell the tale The days are filled with anxiety Frustration, one right note a day Where to find a perfect tune Just do the work and take a step back All the joy unforgiven by this task An errant soul, homeless and foul All gone but the will to Live to tell the tale Dark chambers of my mind Locked around the neck of my love None of you understand And it doesn’t matter To a broken marionette like me An errant soul, homeless and foul An errant soul, homeless and foul All gone but the will to Live to tell the tale Oh how I hate mykind Have it all Yet wish to die Not mykind but the kind as you are Saints in Cain’s mask I love you I just did

Enchantress came to me and said: Meet me at the lake tonight I hunmed this song to the white Through the shroud of snow I saw Paradise Peace No more lies Crestfallen soul Rest for this night Love is here Right here under my wings I dream of wolves with them I run For me she lengthened the night I am home I am in peace Crestfallen soul Rest for this night Love is here Right here under my wings

Time it took the most of me And left me with no key To unlock the chest of remedy Mother, the pain ain`t hurting me But the love that I feel When you hold me near The hopes were high The choirs were vast Now my dreams are left to live through you Red Sun rising Drown without inhaling Within, the dark holds hard Passiontide An angel by my side But no Christ to end this war To deliver my soul from the sword Hope has shown me a scenery Paradise poetry With first snow I`ll be gone The hopes were high The choirs were vast Now my dreams are left to live through you Red Sun rising Drown without inhaling Within, the dark holds hard Red Sun rising Curtain falling Higher than hope my cure lies Your death saved me Red Sun rising Drown without inhaling Within, the dark holds hard Red Sun rising Curtain falling Higher than hope my cure lies Red Sun rising Drown without inhaling Within, the dark holds hard Red Sun rising Curtain falling Higher than hope my cure lies