Adrian

Denying the lying A million children fighting For lives in strife For hope beyond the horizon A dead world A dark path Not even crossroads to choose from All the bloodred Carpets before me Behold this fair creation of God My only wish to leave behind All the days of the Earth An everyday hell of my kingdom come The 1st rock thrown again Welcome to hell, little Saint Mother Gaia in slaughter Welcome to paradise, Soldier My 1st cry neverending All life is to fear for life You fool, you wanderer You challenged the gods and lost Save yourself a penny for the ferryman Save yourself and let them suffer In hope In love This world ain’t ready for The Ark Mankind works in mysterious ways

This is me for forever One of the lost ones The one without a name Without an honest heart as compass This is me for forever One without a name These lines the last endeavor To find the missing lifeline Oh how I wish For soothing rain All I wish is to dream again My loving heart Lost in the dark For hope I`d give my everything Oh how I wish For soothing rain Oh how I wish to dream again Once and for all And all for once Nemo my name forevermore My flower, withered between The pages 2 and 3 The once and forever bloom gone with my sins Walk the dark path Sleep with angels Call the past for help Touch me with your love And reveal to me my true name Oh, how I wish… Nemo sailing home Nemo letting go Oh, how i wish…

I wish I had an angel For one moment of love I wish I had your angel Your Virgin Mary undone I’m in love with my lust Burning angelwings to dust I wish I had your angel tonight Deep into a dying day I took a step outside an innocent heart Prepare to hate me fall when I may This night will hurt you like never before Old loves they die hard Old lies they die harder I wish I had an angel For one moment of love I wish I had your angel Your Virgin Mary undone I’m in love with my lust Burning angelwings to dust I wish I had your angel tonight I’m going down so frail ‚n cruel Drunken disguise changes all the rules Old loves they die hard Old lies they die harder I wish I had an angel For one moment of love I wish I had your angel Your Virgin Mary undone I’m in love with my lust Burning angelwings to dust I wish I had your angel tonight Greatest thrill Not to kill But to have the prize of the night Hypocrite Wannabe friend 13th disciple who betrayed me for nothing! Last dance, first kiss Your touch my bliss Beauty always comes with dark thoughts I wish I had an angel For one moment of love I wish I had your angel Your Virgin Mary undone I’m in love with my lust Burning angelwings to dust I wish I had your angel tonight

Once I had a dream And this is it Once there was a child’s dream One night the clock struck twelve The window open wide Once there was a child’s heart The age I learned to fly And took a step outside Once I knew all the tales It’s time to turn back time Follow the pale moonlight Once I wished for this night Faith brought me here It’s time to cut the rope and fly Fly to a dream Far across the sea All the burdens gone Open the chest once more Dark chest of wonders Seen through the eyes Of the one with pure heart Once so long ago The one in the Big Blue is what the world stole from me This night will bring him back to me Fly to a dream…

Imagine a perfect beach Without a mermaid Imagine a perfect hideaway Without a time Ocean Soul Imagine a perfect Eden Without a friend without a serpent Ocean Soul Lonely Soul „Feeling lonely and content at the same time, I believe, is a rare kind of happiness” Ocean Soul Lonely Soul

I went into the wilderness with Uncle Walt I discovered the wild Learning to suck all the experience Seeing the world through cradle’s bars The wild blessed me with an errant mind Showing the way for the ultimate lore I went around the world, beyond the wild Finding my home from an ocean shore Wayfarer, heartlander What if I only had One more night to live Home is where the way is My road goes on forever One more voyage to go Dead to the world Alive for the journey

I. Long Lost Love Trees have dropped their leaves, Clouds their waters All this burden is killing me Distance is covering your way, Tears your memory All this beauty is killing me Oh, do you care, I still feel for you So aware, What should be lost is there I fear I will never find anyone I know my greatest pain is yet to come Will we find each other in the dark My long lost love II. One More Night To Live Safely away from the world In a dream, timeless domain A child, dreamy eyed, Mother’s mirror, father’s pride I wish I could come back to you Once again feel the rain Falling inside me Cleaning all that I’ve become My home is far but the rest it lies so close With my long lost love under the black rose You told I had the eyes of a wolf Search them and find the beauty of the beast All of my songs can only be composed of the greatest of pains Every single verse can only be born of the greatest of wishes I wish I had one more night to live A saint blessed me, drank me deeply Spitting out the misery in me Still a sinner rapes 1000 saints Sharing the same hell with me Sanest choice in the insane world: Beware the beast but enjoy the feast he offers III. Christabel „Oh, sweet Christabel. Share with me your poem. For I know now, I’m a puppet on this silent stage show. I’m but a poet who failed his best play. A Dead Boy, who failed to write an ending To each of his poems.”

Christine: In sleep he sang to me In dreams he came That voice which calls to me And speaks my name And do I dream again? For now I find The phantom of the opera is there, Inside my mind Phantom: Sing once again with me Our strange duet My power over you Grows stronger yet And though you turn from me to glance behind The phantom of the opera is there Inside your mind Christine: Those who have seen your face Draw back in fear I am the mask you wear Phantom: It’s me they hear Both: My/Your spirit and my/your voice In one combined The phantom of the opera is there inside my/your mind Chorus: Is that the phantom of the opera? Beware the phantom of the opera Phantom: In all your fantasies you always knew That man and mystery Christine: Were both in you Both: And in this labrinth Where night is blind The Phantom of the opera is here/there Christine: Inside my mind Phantom: Sing, my Angel of Music! CHRISTINE He’s there, the Phantom of the Opera . .

You were my first love The earth moving under me Bedroom scent, beauty ardent Distant shiver, heaven sent I’m the snow on your lips The freezing taste, the silvery sip I’m the breath on your hair The endless nightmare, devil’s lair Only so many times I can say I long for you The lily among the thorns The prey among the wolves Someday, I will feed a snake Drink her venom, stay awake With time all pain will fade Through your memory I will wade Barely cold in her grave Barely warm in my bed Settling for a draw tonight Puppet girl, your strings are mine This one is for you for you Only for you Just give in to it never think again I feel for you

One more night To bear this nightmare What more do I have to say Crying for me was never worth a tear My lonely soul is only filled with fear Long hours of loneliness Between me and the sea Losing emotion Finding devotion Should I dress in white and search the sea As I always wished to be – one with the waves Ocean Soul Walking the tideline I hear your name Is angels wispering Something so beautiful it hurts I only wished to become something beautiful Through my music, through my silent devotion

Fare thee well, little broken heart Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone Constant longing for the perfect soul Unwashed scenery forever gone No love left in me No eyes to see the heaven beside me My time is yet to come So I’ll be forever yours

I’m a priest for the poorest sacrifice I’m but a raft in a sea of sorrow and greed You bathed in my wine Drank from my cup, mocked my rhyme Your slit tongues licked my aching wounds Put a stake through my heart! And drag me into sunlight So awake for your greed As you’re slaying the dreamer Swansong for the Wish of Night God it hurts, give a name to the pain Our primrose path to hell is growing weed Blame me, it’s me Coward, a good-for-nothing scapegoat Dumb kid, living a dream Romantic only on paper Tell me why you took all that was mine! Stay as you lay – don’t lead me astray! Wake up, mow the weed You’d be nothing without me Take my life if you have the heart to die You bastards tainted my tool Raped my words, played me a fool Gather your precious glitter and leave me be The Great Ones are all dead And I’m tired, too I truly hate you all!

Ever felt away with me Just once that all I need Entwined in finding you one day Ever felt away without me My love, it lies so deep Ever dream of me Would you do it with me Heal the scars and change the stars Would you do it for me Turn loose the heaven within I’d take you away Castaway on a lonely day Bosom for a teary cheek My song can but borrow your grace Come out, come out wherever you are So lost in your sea Give in, give in for my touch For my taste for my lust Your beauty cascaded on me In this white night fantasy

All the same take me away We’re dead to the world The child gave thought to the poet’s world Gave comfort to the Fallen (Heartfelt, lovelorn) Remaining, yet still uninvited Those words scented my soul (Lonely soul, Ocean soul) It’s not the monsters under your bed It is the Man next door That makes you fear, makes you cry, Makes you cry for the child All the wars are fought among those lonely men Unarmed, unscarred I don’t want to die a scarless man A lonely soul (Tell me now what to do) I studied silence to learn the music I joined the sinful to regain innocence Heaven queen, cover me In all that blue Little boy, such precious joy Is dead to the world Heaven queen, carry me Away from all pain All the same take me away We’re dead to the world Dead, silent, constant Yet always changing – My favorite view of this world As he died, he will return to die in me again Weaving the cloth, giving birth to the Century Child Who gave his life not for the world but for me Innocence reborn once more

It is the end of all hope To lose the child, the faith To end all the innocence To be someone like me This is the birth of all hope To have what I once had This life unforgiven It will end with a birth No will to wake for this morn To see another black rose born Deathbed is slowly covered with snow Angels, they fell first but I’m still here Alone as they are drawing near In heaven my masterpiece will finally be sung Wounded is the deer that leaps highest And my wound it cuts so deep Turn off the light and let me pull the plug Mandylion without a face Deathwish without a prayer End of hope End of love End of time The rest is silence

„I was born amidst the purple waterfalls. I was weak, yet not unblessed. Dead to the world. Alive for the journey. One night I dreamt a white rose withering, a newborn drowning a lifetime loneliness. I dreamt all my future. Relived my past. A witnessed the beauty of the beast” Where have all the feelings gone? Why has all the laughter ceased? Why am I loved only when I’m gone? Gone back in time to bless the child Think of me long enough to make a memory Come bless the child one more time How can I ever feel again? Given the chance would I return? I’ve never felt so alone in my life As I drank from a cup which was counting my time There’s a poison drop in this cup of Man To drink it is to follow the left hand path „Where have all the feelings gone? Why is the deadliest sin – to love as I loved you? Now unblessed, homesick in time, soon to be freed from care, from human pain. My tale is the most bitter truth: Time pays us but with earth & dust, and a dark, silent grave. Remember, my child: Without innocence the cross is only iron, hope is only an illusion & Ocean Soul’s nothing but a name…” The Child bless thee & keep thee forever

Close your eyes Feel the ocean where passion lies Silently the senses Abandon all defences A place between sleep and awake End of innocence, unending masquerade That’s where I’ll wait for you Hold me near you So close I sear you Seeing, believing Dreaming, decieving A place between sleep and awake End of innocence, unending masquerade That’s where I’ll wait for you Sleepwalker seducing me I dare to enter your ecstacy Lay yourself now down to sleep In my dreams you’re mine to keep (Sleepwalk with me…) Sleepwalker seducing me…

Part 1 Wish upon a star Take a step enter the land Walk through the air Take my hand Wishmaster`s will- Join him the quest for dream A make-believe Is all we ever need Wish upon a star No matter who you are The second star to the right Harbinger`s gate Beyond the boundaries Blossom ballet In the great wide somewhere Wish upon a star Believe in will The realm of the king of fantasy The master of the tale-like lore The way to kingdom I adore Where the warrior`s heart is pure Where the stories will come true Part 2 A cub of the king betrayed by usurper A girl in the rain swearing to her father`s name Belle the last sight for the dying gruesome The beauties sleeping awaiting Deep in a dream For true love`s first kiss Part 3 Bald Mountain Night Devilheart endures but light A mad aerial dance Chernabog`s succubi Black Cauldron born Gurgi`s heart forlorn Pig-keeper or hero On a quest of augury Maleficent`s fury The spindle so luring Dragon fight, dying night Dooming might Apprentice of Yen Sid Conducting the galaxy Dreamer on mountaintop Spellbound masquerade The Sailor an idol for the six-year-old in me The Phoenix of White Agony Creek Enchantress, A mermaid in a tale as old as time A Dragonslayer, The Awakener Wish upon a star…

Born from silence, silence full of it A perfect concert my best friend So much to live for, so much to die for If only my heart had a home Sing what you can`t say Forget what you can`t play Hasten to drown into beautiful eyes Walk within my poetry, this dying music – My loveletter to nobody Never sigh for better world It`s already composed, played and told Every thought the music I write Everything a wish for the night Wrote for the eclipse, wrote for the virgin Died for the beauty the one in the garden Created a kingdom, reached for the wisdom Failed in becoming a god Never sigh… „If you read this line, remember not the hand that wrote it Remember only the verse, songmaker`s cry, the one without tears For I`ve given this its strength and it has become my only strength. Comforting home, mother`s lap, chance for immortality Where being wanted became a thrill I never knew The sweet piano writing down my life” „Teach me passion for I fear it`s gone Show me love, hold the lorn So much more I wanted to give to the ones who love me I`m sorry Time will tell (this bitter farewell) I live no more to shame nor me nor you” And you… I wish I didn`t feel for you anymore… A lonely soul… An ocean soul…

In your creation heaven did decree That in your arms sweet death should dwell Deep Silent Complete Black velvet sea The sirens are calling for me Saved my soul thinking „This song`s a lie” Sand on the shore is so dry Deep Silent Complete Black velvet sea Brave day sinking in endless night The age will say „This poet lies” Heaven never touched earthly face The age will say „This night was ours” Blessed with the Deep The Silent the Complete

Crownless again shall be the queen Trophy on her grave still remains unseen A boat on the river confessing the sins The Riddler revealing the deep hidden things Crownless again shall be the king A gull covered in oil with a broken wing A hitcher on a road alone and lost Iron sharpens iron – a truth that once was Mine is the Earth and the sword in the stone Mine is the throne for the idol One fleeting moment and it is all gone Crownless again Will I fall? Roaming on razor-sharp castles Ruling all but myself (Now my night is laid to sleep) One fragrant rose worth ten times what I am A crippled begging a coin braver than I ever was Reflection from me – Devil dressed in white Chasten the being Become what I once was Mine is the Earth…

Sweet boy, come in I am the dark side of you Die for my sins Like the One once did Cinnamon bed For your unashamed appetite A figurante This dance will hurt like hell Oh, bare grace misery Just a child without a fairytale am I Dark but so lovely A Little Match Girl freezing in the snow Love lying, enticing (Bare grace misery) Crowning the moment (Bare grace misery) This is what I am Bare grace for the end of days Romantic scent Spoiled Lucrece lies warm for you There`s no such priest That can pray me to heaven When done with me Forget if you think I feel ashamed A wild thing Never felt sorry for anything Love lying…

Master! Apprentice! Heartborne, 7th Seeker Warrior! Disciple! In me the Wishmaster Elbereth Lorien A dreamy-eyed child staring into night On a journey to storyteller`s mind Whispers a wish speaks with the stars the words are silent in him Distant sigh from a lonely heart „I`ll be with you soon, my Shalafi” Grey Havens my destiny Master!… Silvara Starbreeze Sla-Mori the one known only by Him To august realms, the sorcery within If you hear the call of arcane lore, Your world shall rest on Earth no more A maiden elf calling with her cunning song „Meet me at the Inn of Last Home” Heartborne will find the way! Master!… Wishmaster Crusade for Your will A child, dreamfinder The Apprentice becoming… Master!…

Sleep Eden sleep My fallen son Slumber in peace Cease the pain Life`s just in vain For us to gain Nothing but all the same No healing hand For your disease Drinking scorn like water Cascading with my tears Beneath the candle bed Two saddened angels – in heaven, in death Now let us lie Sad we lived sad we die Even in your pride I never blamed you A mother`s love Is a sacrifice Together sleeping Keeping it all No sympathy No eternity One light for each undeserved tear Beneath the candle bed Two souls with everything yet to be said

I want to see where the sirens sing Hear how the wolves howl Sail the dead calm waters of the Pacific Dance in the fields of coral Be blinded by the white Discover the deepest jungle I want to find The Secret Path A bird delivered into my heart, so It`s not the end Not the kingdom come It is the journey that matters, the distant wanderer Call of the wild In me forever and ever and ever forever Wanderlust I want to love by the Blue Lagoon Kiss under the waning moon Straying, claiming my place in this mortal coil Riding the dolphins Asking the mountains Dreaming Alaska The Earth can have but Earth I want to find… It`s not the end… Drown into my eyes and see the wanderer See the mirrors of a wolf behold the pathfinder